im currently typing with paint on my fingejrs because i want my laptop to be covered with paint . do i really know why i want my computer to be covered in paint ? no . am i still doing it ? yes absolutely . something in me is just bored enough for me to probably permanently alter my technology on a whim . its a good time lol

its also great bc im going to a restaurant later and im gonna have paint all over my hands lmao

honestly i dont really care abt resale value ayhow bc im pretty sure im gonna be using this laptop until it fully dies . theres not a lot o way i can get a new one right now at least , so i may as well have fun w it

and the way i have fun w it is by making it super colorful and covered in my fingerprints !! quite literally unable to be replecated . & i mean i know its not the most unique thing in the world , but i never claimed to be unique dhfhdh

anyway i need to stop for now to let some of the paint dry . i might return to ramble later

i think this was yesterday or maybe the day before , but ... i scheduled my first doctor's appointment for myself !!! wowow !! im pretty damn nervous abt it bc itll be my first time talking to a doctor by myself hdfhdg

ik that sounds dumb bc im a whole adult but doctors make me so nervous . and mine is pretty nice , but like idk how to talk to people that i ,,,, dont know lol , and doctors offices are so sensory bad for me that i tend to just shut down and i never take in anything about her that i can use later

BUT THIS TIME . im gonna do my best :3 . and its not just an annual checkup im actually going to talk to her abt my health problems , so theres really no excuse for me not to talk about it . so lets hope for the best ! its at the end of the month so hopefully the anticipation doesnt kill me first