went to the library today -- bought two books from their shop for $2 total n took out some cds , including two different paramore albums !!!! but also i had to carry my bag n even tho i was using my cane i got tired after standing n walking for only a few minutes . its gotta be the bag but i love that bag i dont wanna stop using it . its green and its got so many pockets and i love ittt ;;-;;

i think i might want to get a cross-body bag of some sort but thats janky for dysphoria and also storage size reasons

i need to schedule a physical w my doctor n actually fuckin talk to her abt my medical issues so i can go into physical therapy , maybe get actually diagnosed w something , and find someone to talk to who knows a bit more abt mobility aids n such -- im honestly considering trying to get a wheelchair at some point , but thats yet another thing i need money for , and if i cant stand for even short periods of time without feeling actually AWFUL how the fuck am i supposed to work to save up money . welcome to the worst catch 22 ever , capitalism and disability . hooray

anyway other than that i really did have a good time -- went w my friend ash n we read girls last tour ( i re-read it and they read it for the first time . ) i figured out i still really like that series , which is nice since i have a habit of liking things the first time i see them and then coming back to them later w a more critical eye and realizing they arent actually that good :/

was gonna write out lyrics for the albums i got but my hands hurt too much and my head cant concentrate enough to do anything . i suppose for now they will sit in the purg until i have energy again